This is me today (pictured right).
Looking at me you would automatically assume I’m this happy-go-lucky girl, a girl who is confident, positive and well, just happy to be alive.
A picture speaks a thousand words doesn’t it?
Well that assumption would actually be correct, but don’t be fooled by what you see, I wasn’t always this way. I posted many pictures in the past with this same smile, a smile that was hiding a lot of demons.
But more details in later posts…
Now look at this picture on the left. Same bright smile. What would you assume by looking at this? The same as the top, right? Well, don’t get me wrong, this day I was incredibly happy because my brother got married but behind this smile I was suffering internally for a very long time. The sad thing was, most people did not know what I was going through. On the outside it seemed like I was really happy, and for in that moment in time I was, but 10 days after this photo was taken I hit rock bottom (again, more on that later).
What I am trying to say is, you don’t know the struggles of what someone is going through. You might see them happy all over social media but deep down there could be a lot of pain that is hidden by a smile. That was me for a very long time. Outwardly I was this happy beautiful, carefree girl, inwardly I suffered from severe anxiety and depression.
This is why I wanted to start writing, because I know there are thousands of people out there just like how I was and I’m here to tell you, I know what you are going through.
These blogs are going to share my journey. My journey to finding love within myself. The steps I have taken to get to the genuine smile you see pictured up top. The roads I have taken to make myself a happier and healthier person.
So whomever may be reading this and deciding to follow my story, thank you. To those who may be reading this and feeling lost, I promise you, in time it will get better. Trust me.